1.
Magic in the
Night
I like to watch my shadow on the
ground as I walk, the wind tossing my curly hair upward and outward. I can see the ends of it waving against the
dry buff of the grass on the school playground.
I guess short hair isn’t so bad, after all. At first, it felt strange to have it cut,
after having long hair most of my childhood.
But Mom says it makes me look more mature this way, and with this mane
of hair, I can throw my head back like a wild horse and break into a run on the
street leading home.
My younger brother, Ian, is waiting
today, meeting me halfway down the block, waving at me wildly. When I reach him, he pulls me into the
exuberant embrace of a five-year-old, and begins a steady babble of questions:
“What did you do at school today,
Cinda? Did you see any Hobbits down by
the creek? Do you think we could take a
walk in the woods after supper? Will we
ever get to go camping?”
“Hey, slow down!” I ruffle his curly red hair and watch the
wind finish what I started. For an
instant, I see our dad—who he’s named after.
I’m sure it’s because he has the same hair and greenish eyes. “I can’t answer twenty-million questions at
once. And Hobbits are imaginary,
remember?” I take a deep breath. “Where do you want me start?”
He swings in beside me, holding my
hand tightly. “It doesn’t matter. I’m just glad you’re home. I miss you on school days.”
As I smile down at him, I feel the
strong connection we’ve always had. The
seven years between us always seem to melt away when we’re together. I don’t even care that my school friends
think it’s strange to be such close friends with a little boy, even if he is my
brother. But of all my friends, Ian is
the one I feel most comfortable with. I
can talk to him about anything and know that despite his young age, he somehow
understands.
Mom says he has some kind of sixth
sense, like our dad. Sometimes I ask her
more about this, but she won’t tell anything else. “Dad is the one who’ll decide when you’re old
enough,” is all she ever says.
One day this past summer, I met Dad in
the driveway right after he got home from work and pulled him around the back
side of the groundcar’s charging station.
“What is Mom talking about?” I demanded.
“Are you psychic, or something?
She says Ian has a sixth sense like you.
What does she mean?”
Dad looked into my eyes for an
instant, but then he turned his gaze down to the grass at our feet. “I wish your mom wouldn’t talk to you about
it,” he sighed, almost to himself. “Cinda,
I promise I’ll tell you when you’re old enough.
It’s complicated.”
“But Dad, I’m almost thirteen.”
“All right,” he half-smiled. “You can ask me again when you’re a teenager,
okay?”
I let out a deep sigh. Same old brush off! And he knows as well as I do that my birthday
is eight months off.
Now as I remember this, I look down at
Ian and see how his hair seems to glow in the setting sun. There’s something almost other-worldly about
it. Why does he seem somehow more than
just a child?
Sometimes when we sit talking, especially
in the back yard under a sky full of stars, it seems the years fall away from
us, and we become two beings existing in all time—traveling from star to
star—instead of a teenager named after her mother, Lucinda, and a five-year-old
boy.
I shake my head slightly as we walk up
the driveway. Am I crazy, or is it just
my imagination? Then I realize Ian
hasn’t re-voiced any of his many questions, and I look down into his face.
He smiles up at me and says, “You were
thinking.”
Just as simple as that. It’s like he can somehow read my
thoughts. Now I can see the shine of
stars in his eyes. Tonight could be one
of those magical nights, so I say, “Let’s ask Mom if we can sleep out in the
yard tonight. After all, it’s Friday.”
“A-a-ll right!” He draws the words out as he dashes through
the back door ahead of me. “Mom!” I hear
him calling. “Can Cinda and me get out
the tent?”
“Ian, say it correctly: ‘May Cinda and I get out the tent?’,” Mom is saying as I walk in.
“Oh, okay—May Cinda and I—can we
please?”
Mom turns and shrugs at me. “Where did I go wrong?” she rolls her eyes,
but I see the smile hiding there. “We’ll
see after supper, Ian,” she adds. “Now
wash up.”
He grins as he runs for the sink. I can tell he’s seen her smile, too.
After supper, Dad helps us get out the
old canvas tent that looks like a square umbrella, and we set it up in the
backyard. He doesn’t say much, and I can
tell he must be tired from a long week at work.
I’m not exactly sure what he does, except that he works at an office in Denver
and drives over an hour just to get there.
Most days Mom has to save his supper for later because he can’t get home
in time to eat with us. At least he got home
early today.
“Dad?”
“Yes, Cinda?”
“Can we go camping in the mountains
someday?”
I hear him sigh and see how he tries
to smile. “I hope so. We need a better tent than this one, though.”
“Like what, Dad?” asks Ian.
“One with a real floor to keep the
damp out and the warmth in,” Dad mutters.
“The nights get cold in the mountains.
And we’d need a real zipper for closing the door—to keep out the
insects.”
“Have you ever been camping there,
Dad?”
He turns to me, and I see his eyes
flash. “My brother Dain and I used to go
when we were young. But now we’re too busy
with our jobs and families. Besides Dain
and his family live far away now, since they moved to Montana.”
“Was the camping before Grandpa Parker
died?” asks Ian.
I see him flinch as he turns toward Ian. He opens his mouth, but then closes it and
just nods.
“You went camping before then, right,
Dad?” I say for him.
Now I see him swallow hard and nod.
Silence floats between the three of
us, as Dad rises to his feet. “I need to
go talk to Mom. You two can handle
things from here.”
“Sure, Dad.” I try to make my voice sound cheerful as he
walks toward the house. “You need to remember not to ask about Grandpa Parker,”
I whisper to my brother as we crawl into the tent and begin to spread our
blankets out to cover the grass.
“Yeah, I forgot.”
I decide to change the subject. “I wish we could visit Uncle Dain in Montana . I’ve heard it’s a really neat place.”
“Me too, Cinda.”
“Yeah, I wonder why Dad isn’t close to
his brother,” I sigh. “They hardly ever
talk, it seems.”
I look up at Ian as I finish and see
how the rising full moon is shining through the door into his hair, looking
like a halo.
“Do you think he’ll ever let us go
camping in the mountains, like he used to?”
“I don’t know, Ian. It seems to remind him too much of Grandpa
and how he died too young, before Dad was even in high school.”
“It would be hard, wouldn’t it, if one
of our parents were to die soon?”
A chill runs down my spine, making me
shiver. “Let’s not talk like that. It might bring bad luck.”
He doesn’t reply but turns and looks
wistfully at the blue-black of the evening sky.
I move over next to him in the tent doorway, following his gaze. We sit in silence a long time, watching as
the stars begin to appear one by one.
I hear a humming sound and realize
it’s my own voice.
“I wonder if the stars really sing,”
he whispers.
“You mean like the Bible says they did
at Creation?”
“Yeah.”
Quiet settles around us again.
“Cinda?”
“Huh?”
“Sometimes I can almost hear them, but
not quite.”
“Me, too. It’s like you only hear them when you quit
trying too hard. Then it happens, kind
of by itself, just for a moment.”
“I think this is one of those nights,”
he whispers.
I don’t say anything, enjoying the
silence. Instead I take his hand.
His voice comes again, “It’s the kind
of night that feels like Narnia is right across the yard. If you walked over there at just the right
time, you’d walk into it, like Lucy went in through the wardrobe.”
I draw a sharp breath. ‘Lucy?
That’s Mom’s name. Could there be
some kind of connection?’ But I push
this thought out of my mind. ‘Don’t get
carried away. He’s just a child and has
a big imagination,’ I tell myself.
His voice begins to speak again, and
it suddenly seems far away, even though he’s still right beside me, “Maybe it’s
Middle Earth,” his voice begins to quaver.
“I feel like I can almost see it.
Look—over there. I see something
moving.”
I follow his pointing finger and draw in
a sharp breath. “Tell me what you see.”
“It’s an open plain of tall
grass. With moonlight. And some huge animals moving—eating the grass,
I think.”
As I squeeze his hand more tightly I
can see strange shapes looming where our house should be. But then I blink, and in that split-second
it’s gone. All I can see is our back
porch.
“Wait,” he cries. “Oh no, it’s all gone.”
I feel him trembling and pull him
gently into my arms. “It’s okay. I saw it too—the dark shapes and the tall
grass.”
“Did you really, Cinda?”
I nod but wonder if I’m just echoing
what he told me. Did I really see
something?
As I continue rocking him on my lap, I
find myself humming a tune which just started in my head.
“Cinda, what’s that song?” he murmurs.
“I don’t know. Do you?”
“No, but I have a strange feeling that
someday we will. This is kind of scary,
isn’t it? I wonder if things like this
happen to other people.”
“Except in books, right Ian?”
“Yeah.”
“Mom says you have something like Dad,”
I find myself saying, before I realize I shouldn’t.
“We need to ask Dad about it.” He almost jumps up.
“Not now, Ian.” I pull him down into my lap again. “I’ve already asked Dad, and he won’t tell me
anything. He said to wait until I’m
older. Besides, I think I’ve just filled
your head with too many magical stories and books. They’re only pretend, you know.”
“I don’t know,” he sighs. “Sometimes they seem so real in my mind. And you said you saw what I did.”
I try to think of an answer to give
him, but my mind has gone blank.
“Tell me a story—please, Cinda.”
“Oh, all right. Which one would you like?”
“Tell me about how the morning stars
sang together.”
“Okay.
Well, in the beginning of all time, God…”
His eyes are closed as he lies there
with his head in my lap. But I know he
can hear me as I speak softly into the night.